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28/02/2025
HELLO!!!
Hi!!!! Small update that nobody will read, I'm doing better.
Left my now ex boyfriend a month ago and I think it was the right thing to do, I have a shit ton of issues I need to work through and I'm really doing some deep self reflection, if I had the money for a therapist it would be easier but nevertheless I'm grinding hard on this being independent shit.
I want to get back to updating the site even if nobody visits, I missed coding a lil lol... Anyways, bye!!
27/01/2025
I DON'T EVEN KNOW
Hi, I only come here when I feel shitty lmao... I swear most days I'm happy.
My 2 and a half year long relationship is ending and I don't know what to do, he wants me back but I'm just tired of pretending I'm happy, I still care for him deeply and he's not abusive or anything so not giving him another chance is becoming harder and harder to do... I don't know if I love him still.
I think my love is so different from his, so much so that it makes him think I never loved him to begin with... I hate myself for hurting him and I really want to die rn... I'm filling the void with weed and alchool (Not enough to faint or blackout, I don't want to become addicted so I'm trying to be carefull), and I don't know if I can ever trust his friends ever again.
I don't know what to do, I need more time but he won't give it to me and I don't know what to do... I'm just... feeling really shitty rn...
Plus ADHD care sucks ass and I'm going to be without meds for a week and I have exams!!! awesome sauce...
09/12/2024
VERY TIRED AND STRESSED
I'm scared of going back to school bc I lost a week of lessons cause I was sick, and I'm afraid I'm gonna come back and feel out of place and dumb and like nothing makes sense... I wanna make music so bad and I'm super excited cause a friend of mine is a super good musician and he wants to make songs with me and yeah I'm living the dream. But I'm still super stressed super anxious and super afraid...
06/12/2024
PROUD
Today my sister got her degree!!! highest vote possible!!! I LOVE MY SISTER SO MUCHHHHH
I am so proud of her, sis if you see this don't cry istg.
03/12/2024
UGH OMG
Not gonna give the exam. I'm feeling very bad about myself, like really really bad... but it's my foult and I suck and ughhhh. I'm gonna get over it eventually but I still feel guilty af!! At least tomorrow's my mesiversary with Flavio so I have something nice to look foward to...
02/12/2024
STRESSED....
Very stressed bc I got an exam in 2 days and I still haven't finished it... other than that idk, life seems so complicated and all my problems are so big and small at the same time. I'll let you know how the exam goes :(